May I do a little diary pimping here today? Oh Please…for I do not think many read this blog..
Since I do not know how to make the link or the box think, please forgive me if I do it straight..from Baghdad Burning:
Thank you and more below the fold…
(Edited by Steven D to add the link)
Baghdad Burning
… I’ll meet you ’round the bend my friend, where hearts can heal and souls can mend…
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Thank You for the Music…
When I first heard about the abduction of Christian Science Monitor journalist Jill Carroll a week ago, I remember feeling regret. It was the same heavy feeling I get every time I hear of another journalist killed or abducted. The same heavy feeling that settles upon most Iraqis, I imagine, when they hear of acquaintances suffering under the current situation.
I read the news as a subtitle on tv. We haven’t had an internet connection for several days so I couldn’t really read about the details. All I knew was that a journalist had been abducted and that her Iraqi interpreter had been killed. He was shot in cold blood in Al Adil district earlier this month, when they took Jill Carroll… Theysay he didn’t die immediately. It is said he lived long enough to talk to police and then he died.
I found out very recently that the interpreter killed was a good friend- Alan, of Alan’s Melody, and I’ve spent the last two days crying.
Everyone knew him as simply ‘Alan’, or “Elin” as it is pronounced in Iraqi Arabic. Prior to the war, he owned a music shop in the best area in Baghdad, A’arasat. He sold some Arabic music and instrumental music, but he had his regular customers – those westernized Iraqis who craved foreign music. For those of us who listened to rock, adult alternative, jazz, etc. he had very few rivals.
He sold bootleg CDs, tapes and DVDs. His shop wasn’t just a music shop- it was a haven. Some of my happiest moments were while I was walking out of that shop carrying CDs and tapes, full of anticipation for the escape the music provided. He had just about everything from Abba to Marilyn Manson. He could provide anything. All you had to do was go to him with the words,”Alan- I heard a great song on the radio… you have to find it!” Andhe’d sit there, patiently, asking who sang it? You don’t know? Ok- was it a man or a woman? Fine. Do you remember any of the words? Chances were that he’d already heard it and even knew some of the lyrics.
During the sanctions, Iraq was virtually cut off from the outside world.We had maybe four or five local tv stations and it was only during the later years that the internet became more popular. Alan was one of those links with the outside world. Walking into Alan’s shop was like walking into a sort of transitional other world. Whenever you walked into the store, great music would be blaring from his speakers and he and Mohammed, the guy who worked in his shop, would be arguing over who was better, Joe Satriani or Steve Vai.
He would have the latest Billboard hits posted on a sheet of paper near the door and he’d have compiled a few of his own favorites on a ‘collection’ CD. He also went out of his way to get recordings of the latest award shows- Grammys, AMAs, Oscars, etc. You could visit him twice and know that by the third time, he’d have memorized your favorites and found music you might be interested in.
He was an electrical engineer- but his passion was music. His dream was to be a music producer. He was always full of scorn for the usual boy bands – N’Sync, Backstreet Boys, etc. – but he was always trying to promote an Iraqi boy band he claimed he’d discovered,”Unknown to No One”. “They’re great- wallah they have potential.” He’d say. E. would answer, “Alan, they’re terrible.” And Alan, with his usual Iraqi pride would lecture about how they were great, simply because they were Iraqi.
He was a Christian from Basrah and he had a lovely wife who adored him- F. We would tease him about how once he was married and had a family, he’d lose interest in music. It didn’t happen. Conversations with Alan continued to revolve around Pink Floyd, Jimmy Hendrix, but they began to include F. his wife, M. his daughter and his little boy. My heart aches for his family- his wife and children…
You could walk into the shop and find no one behind the counter- everyone was in the other room, playing one version or another of FIFA soccer on the Play Station. He collected those old records, or ‘vinyls’. The older they were, the better. While he promoted new musical technology, he always said that nothing could beat the soundof a vintage vinyl.
We went to Alan not just to buy music. It always turned into a social visit. He’d make you sit down, listen to his latest favorite CD and drink something. Then he’d tell you the latest gossip- he knew it all. He knew where all the parties were, who the best DJs were and who was getting married or divorced. He knew the local gossip and the international gossip, but it was never malicious with Alan. It was always the funny sort.
The most important thing about Alan was that he never let you down. Never. Whatever it was that you wanted, he’d try his hardest to get it. If you became his friend, that didn’t just include music- he was ready to lend a helping hand to those in need, whether it was just to give advice, or listen after a complicated, difficult week.
After the war, the area he had his shop in deteriorated. There were car bombs and shootings and the Badir people took over some of the houses there. People went to A’arasat less and less because it was too dangerous. His shop was closed up more than it was open. He shut it up permanently after getting death threats and a hand grenade through his shop window. His car was carjacked at some point and he was shot at so he started driving around in his fathers beaten-up old Toyota Cressida with a picture of Sistani on his back window, “To ward off the fanatics…” He winked and grinned.
E. and I would stop by his shop sometimes after the war, before he shut it down. We went in once and found that there was no electricity,and no generator. The shop was dimly lit with some sort of fuel lampand Alan was sitting behind the counter, sorting through CDs. He was ecstatic to see us. There was no way we could listen to music so he and E. sang through some of their favorite songs, stumbling upon the lyrics and making things up along the way. Then we started listening to various ring tones and swapping the latest jokes of the day. Before we knew it, two hours had slipped by and the world outside was forgotten, an occasional explosion bringing us back to reality.
It hit me then that it wasn’t the music that made Alan’s shop a haven- somewhere to forget problems and worries- it was Alan himself.
He loved Pink Floyd:
Did you see the frightened ones?
Did you hear the falling bombs?
Did you ever wonder why we
Had to run for shelter when the
Promise of a brave, new world
Unfurled beneath the clear blue sky?
Did you see the frightened ones?
Did you hear the falling bombs?
The flames are all long gone, but the pain lingers on.
Goodbye, blue sky
Goodbye, blue sky.
Goodbye. Goodbye.
(Goodbye Blue Sky – Pink Floyd)
Goodbye Alan…
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Here is link to Riverbend’s Baghdad Burning!
My coverage of Jill Carroll …
Perhaps JimStaro will team up to publish a daily Iraq News diary?
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Thanks Oui. I just wished I had your skills…I can only do it in my own simplistic ways, is all. I found that to be extremely interesting and wanted others to see it too. I read for a long time in her blog. I used to read her a long time ago just about the beginning of the war. Anyhows, thanks…you are such a great reporter of us to have here…
Brenda – I am so glad that you didn’t let your computer skills stop you from sharing this.
Thank you.
thank you, tampopo. I appreciate that. I enjoy your comments too all over the other diaries. Thank you, once again.
Thanks Brenda — all too easy to lose the human dimension in times like these.
Thanks,Arcturus. Don’t ya just know! CAn you really get deep in the thought as to all the life that is lost nowadays for nothing!!?? I can not do anything but weep and shake my head in disgust. The poor children now without a father, and a wife to fend for herself now and her children…what a desperate situation we are in and nothing that we can do about it…
Thanks, Steven D…hugs…you can help me out any old day!!! :o) As anyone knows by now, I can use all the help I can get…:o)
I am a great human intrest person. As I see it, we are all human and we do share so much. It is not like they are foreign ppl there in the land of oz someplace. They are humans like we are humans. I really do try hard to place myself in others situations. It is not easy for what ever reason there is an interest there of. They breathe, shed blood, love, they care, they hate, they do all that we do here. Just give it a thought when you think ill of them or someone. I know..it seems at times hard to think yourself into…but just try..you would find you are looking into the mirror..
Brenda – I wanted to take this opportunity to tell you how much I admire you.
Reading many of your comments over the time I have been at BT, I have come to appreciate your passionate caring and your love of people.
Recently, discussions of John Yoo ignited a ferocity in you that I hadn’t quite seen before. Some folks who responded to you suggested you consider what you were saying.
You wrote something like, “I was asked to stand down” – and you really paused and moderated what you said. You didn’t get all huffy and defensive. It was beautiful to behold Brenda! A lesson for me.
And the comment I am replying to in this diary was a lesson in how to feel empathy. For Alan’s family and friends, it is easy for me. It is a struggle for me to feel empathy for Bush, Cheney, Yoo, etc. Practice, practice, practice š
Tampopo, thank you so very much for this and I will take it as a compliment. I try hard, I really do, to give some thought as to what I say and write. I know how words can and will hurt others. I have to work on this and to be absolutely sure I am correct on what I feel before I commit to anything in words…Sometimes they can come back to bite one in the butt….:o) But with John Yoo, I am emphatic on this and will not let it stand that he needs a compromise for what he has said and done..He is hurting all of with his thoughts and words and opinion….and to those who believe in him and that think he is something that is not bad for us, are simply disillusioned within themselves.
Like I said, for the most part, I am a loving and calm person who loves and takes care of others..I try to do unto others as I would have them do unto me.
Anyhow, thanks…hugs..
Thank you Brenda for your contribution here today. Oh and Pink Floyd’s Goodbye Blue Sky is so fitting. It is one of my favorite songs and brings tears to my eyes. May Alan’s family know that we all care and feel his loss.
alohaleezy, it has been my sincere pleasure to bring her words here. I have read her but not as I should. I think we could gain from her insight. When I do read her, she does me great heart, even though she doesn’t know me. For this I pray for her safety and well being…Thanks, you go girl…you are a great contributor here, as well…hugs
So tired of all the loss. So sick of it all dressed up as something else and called things that it isn’t.
I so totally agree!!!!! hugs, my Friend. All we can do is keep the faith, I suppose, and try to fight off the evil in our country and world.