[promoted by BooMan]
Years and years ago, I had someone very close to me call in the middle of the night. She was contemplating doing the unthinkable, staring down the barrel of self-annihilation, ending her life. She called me because she was desperate. Her life was difficult, miserable and full of pain but she didn’t want to end it, she just wanted to know why she shouldn’t end it.
If you’ve never been there, it’s more difficult than you can imagine. We go through our days saying why of course it is worth living, but when you’re looking into the frightened eyes of someone who is no longer convinced, what do you tell them? You’ve got to get down to the core of what makes life precious, beautiful and worthwhile, because someone you care about very much no longer realizes that.
In many ways America is traveling down the same path. Of course I mean that metaphorically, as the physical rocks and soil of what we call the United States will last long after people choose to stop calling it that. No, I am referring to the cultural values of America, perhaps more idealistically known as “what makes America great” – that is what the people in my country are close to wiping out, in fear and desperation to make the pain go away, and because it’s no longer clear that it is worth saving.
It’s easy to sit in your civics class and hold aloft the Constitution and the Bill of Rights and sing odes to them. But try it after you’ve had police storm your apartment without a warrant, looking for a drug dealer that isn’t there (oops, wrong address). Try doing it after you’ve gone through hundreds of police roadblocks set up ostensibly to catch drunk drivers, but fining you for not having your stickers up to date. Try doing it after you’ve had your shoes removed, your body wanded and your personal belongings riffled through in front of others when you’re coming back to the U.S. after a trip abroad. Try doing it when breastfeeding your child is a crime and when the accidental baring of a nipple on TV garners a half million dollar fine.
Try cherishing those documents when the clerk at the corner store sits behind glass for fear that you will rob them, when restaurants have armed uniformed guards, when banks have hundreds of cameras, when you’re forced to show ID to any curious passing police officer, when you’ve got to give blood and urine samples to a prospective employer and when your fingerprints are required to get a driver’s license. When your landlord can search your home at any time and so can the police with his permission. When all of your financial records are available online for a fee, when your phone records can be bought by the public. When your internet and phone company and bank tell you openly your records and transactions will be given to the authorities whenever they ask and no warrant is necessary. When police dogs can sniff your person, your car and your luggage and despite the fact there is no certification necessary for their training, if they “indicate” there is illegal substances, you can be searched.
Try writing epic poems to celebrate these documents when it feels like your vote doesn’t count. Even when there’s no monkey business with electronic machines, you live in rigged, gerrymandered districts designed to keep one political party in power. When your vote in the presidential election goes not to the name on the ballot but to a member of the electoral college, whom you’ve never heard of and yet he or she is deciding your vote. And to be able to vote at all you’ve got to find the right precinct, the right station, fill out the right papers, show the right ID. And of course never have been convicted of a crime because then you will learn this “right” is no right at all but merely a privilege.
Try lauding the law of the land when it is buried under a ton of silt from complex judicial decisions that water down such clean and clear language like “Only Congress has the power to declare war” to something amorphous like the President has the right to conduct armed hostilies which include wiretapping phones of innocent Americans because they may be talking to a person who may be linked to a terrorist organization because Congress gave the President the authorization to use force based on an earlier law which said it is ok for the President to initiate hostilies so long as he gave Congress an update every 90 days. Or when the tax code is so labyrinthine and complex that you need to pay someone else to do the paperwork, and that someone else can sell your records for profit to another company and still it is only you responsible, not them, and when the IRS says you made a mistake you are guilty until proven innocent.
Try championing the Declaration of Independence when you can’t even understand the monetary system, have no idea what the heck fractional reserve banking means, when the green pieces of paper in your wallet belong to a private corporation which has an exclusive contract with the government and yet somehow you the citizen are responsible for trillions in debt and you have to rely on nameless “experts” who tell you this is all somehow good for the “economy”. When you are taxed heavily by the faceless FICA yet you know the government is borrowing that money with no coherent plan to pay it back.
Try celebrating the Bill of Rights when your home, your money and years of your life can be taken away in the misbegotten “War on Drugs”, which criminalizes the possession and use of some substances while other, equally toxic substances are completely legal. When lives are destroyed, families ripped apart and peaceful citizens are thrown into the ever-expanding prison system to mingle with violent predators. Try celebrating freedom when your country has more people behind bars, on parole and on probation (per capita) than any other nation on earth – even more than China.
It is a grim time in America and all of those values that many of us grew up to consider fundamental, bedrock principles that are worth dying for have been steadily eroding for years. It becomes so hard to draw a line in the sand and say this is it, this is where I say enough is enough. And if you look around and see the things which make life worth living are all slipping away, where do you get the energy to fight to preserve the decaying fragments of what is left? When do you say enough is enough?
I guess we all have to make our choices, to look deep down in our souls and figure out which American values are worth it. I commend the hundreds of thousands of people who marched to protest the attempt to criminalize any contact with undocumented workers. I commend those who marched in the Texas heat last summer who dared to ask why our soldiers are fighting and dying in Iraq. I commend those who stood up and supported Senator Feingold, not because he “criticized” the President, but because he said by god in America there is no king, the Congress makes the laws and everyone up to and including the President must follow them. I commend those who stood up and supported Rep. Waxman, not because he “criticized” the President, but because he said by god in America there is no king, the Congress makes the law and the President can only sign into laws the bills that Congress hath voted upon.
I commend all of those who stood up to protest a war based on lies, misinformation and spin. I commend those who stood up and supported Amnesty International, Human Rights Watch and the ACLU as they worked diligently to document the abuses at Guantanamo Bay and at American-run prisons in Iraq and Afghanistan. I commend those who stand up every single day to protect, defend and augment those fundamental principles that truly are about preserving life and liberty, free speech (yes even when it is unpopular), the freedom to assemble, freedom of worship, and freedom to be secure in your property and your person. I commend all of those of you who struggle to preserve the principle that members of the government must obey the law and yes even the Constitution. I stand up and salute all of you, famous and the anonymous unknown, praised and unheralded alike.
My greatest fear is that many Americans no longer even can remember those values you have stood up and struggled to protect. That their fear and loathing has blotted out the memory of a country which once led the world in defending human rights and now keeps men cowering in their own excrement in a tiny cell because it somehow enhances “national security”. That so many Americans are like my friends on that fateful day so many years ago, wondering what is the point of struggling to preserve liberty and keep freedom alive when it seems like it is already gone and all that remains is hate, fear and suspicion of others.
The good news is my friend is here with us on the planet today and that dark day is now long in the past. It is my fondest wish that one day all of us will be able to say that America’s dark days are long in the past as well.
Cross-posted from the doubleplusungood crimethink website Flogging the Simian
Peace
Amazing jeremiad. Thanks.
Your commendations seem rather like consolation prizes, I must confess.
The condition of the country is so brittle now that it seems inevitable most days we will have to reconstitute it soon, and because of that, it feels so urgent to me that we all believe in what we thought we had more than accept a sullen realism fraught with cynicism.
Excellent work, Soj – thanks.
Despair is a rare feeling for me, but you are a dear friend without whose perspective I couldn’t carry on. Same goes for all Bootribbers.
You’ve left me speechless — for the moment.
Thank you.
All of these things have weighed heavily on my heart but I could never find the words. I don’t care that they search my bags and wand me every time I fly now. I will still keep on keeping on in my march back to my rights. Seems silly though when other people are sneaking bomb making materials through the airport screeners that I’m the one chosen to be singled out all three times I flew last year and my bags completely gone through with little tags in them saying that they have been searched…..and all I want is to be free to speak my truth and be free from corporate tyranny and bought off politicians.
is nonviolent struggle, since I have my doubts as to the viability of our two party political system.
I retain some hope that a push from the grass roots up can bring this freight train to a stop and reverse direction.
Five hundred thousand people demonstrating in the streets of LA, is a very hopeful sign. If a couple dozen DJs, (et al) can launch a nonviolent movement I don’t see why we can’t join them.
I just posted a new diary, Effective Counter Attack-Part II; Pillars of Support and the role of Obedience , on nonviolent conflict today, I look forward to your comments with regards to that subject.
Absolutely one of the best essays I have ever read. Than you, Soj, and know it will be spread out from this emial addy in a very wide swath. You speak the truth for so many of us.
They can screw up every part of this country, except for the little firepit inside each one of us, where the sparks of genuine freedom and democracy dwell. No one can extinquish those sparks, and they will be there as long as humankind exists. Given the right mix of fuel..who knows when enough of them may burst into flame at once?
But even if that doesn’t come to pass in our lifetime, those sparks wuill survive just like the Olympic flame and will get passed to those yet to come.
this is beautiful and strongly worded. Thank you for the inclusive, comprehensive detail. Those examples really put flesh on the bone!
“what makes America great”
civics class
the Constitution and the Bill of Rights
sing odes
police storm your apartment without a warrant.
hundreds of police roadblocks
drunk drivers
your body wanded and your personal belongings riffled through in front of others
breastfeeding your child is a crime
a nipple
TV
fear that you will rob them
restaurants have armed uniformed guards
when you’re forced
you’ve got to give blood and urine samples
your fingerprints are required
search your home at any time
financial records
no warrant is necessary
police dogs can sniff your person
no certification necessary
monkey business with electronic machines
buried under a ton of silt
“Only Congress has the power
because they may be talking to a person
a terrorist organization
responsible for trillions in debt
no coherent plan.
expanding prison system
people behind bars
attempt to criminalize
undocumented workers
Texas heat last summer
dying in Iraq
Senator Feingold
there is no king
a war based on lies
American-run prisons
you who struggle
members of the government must obey the law
blotted out the memory of a country
I I I
The truth can not be destroyed, neither can the words that express it. The truth can be whispered from century to century. It keeps springing up to life in new guises.
maybe God just wants us to jettison some things, like the Walmart/weapons mentality, and to move closer to the present and the eternal, where we belong.
Anything created can be destroyed. But the truth was here first. Love.
Thanks soj.should be a must read, in every civics class. I’ll be pitching in.
Woah.. this is way beyond any response I could’ve hoped for. I woke up this morning and all this stuff was weighing on my heart and before my coffee even finished brewing I just started typing and typing…
I guess I still believe that no military, traditional or terrorist, could destroy the United States, but no military destroyed the Roman republic either. It committed suicide when it gave up its fundamental values for reasons that at the time seemed absolutely necessary.
Pax
I just want to add that during World War 2, there was a battle in Romania near the town of Marasesti between nationalist forces and the invading Germans. And one of the Romanian commanders (General Eremia Grigorescu) rallied his troops, telling them “pe aici nu se va trece”, which in English roughly means “past here they will not cross”.
I was saying that to myself all day today, wondering where each of us will draw that line, saying “past here they will not cross”.
Pax
Soj,
I understand and share your feelings. These are indeed dark times for America and its citizens. It is easy to feel despair about the current erosion of the intended protections of the Constitution and the Bill of Rights.
Yet, as one who has been around for a while, I’d like to offer some perspective, and maybe some hope. While times now are indeed dark, there have been times in my lifetime that things have been equally dark and somehow, America made it through and preserved democracy.
I was in my late teens in the 60’s. Many people look back at those times with nostalgia. But those were dark times. Within a few years all of the following occurred: We were on the brink of nuclear war with Russia. I remember at age 14 watching the Cuban missile crisis unfold on my TV screen. When our navy shot across the bow of a Russian ship on its way to Cuba, I remember being terrified that the Russians would launch ICBM’s at us–as we all knew at that time; these nuclear missiles targeted our major cities and could reach us in 30 minutes. The civil rights movement cost the lives of four little girls in a Sunday school, several civil rights workers and Martin Luther King Jr. John F. Kennedy and Robert Kennedy were assassinated. Young American soldiers were dying in Vietnam–and the parallels to the Iraq war are uncanny. Students and protesters clashed in the streets and campuses of America. Some of the anti-war protesters advocated and used violent means of protest. In 1967, a riot in Detroit resulted in calling up the National Guard and when it was over there were 43 dead and 467 injured. On the flip side, at Kent State University 4 protestors were shot and killed and approximately 13 were wounded by their own National Guard countrymen. The Nixon administration (again in uncanny parallels to the present administration) sought unprecedented powers for the President, intimidated the media, accused dissenters of being unpatriotic, and used government resources to spy on political opponents. I am not a historian and I’m sure I left out many important and relevant facts. These were some of the events that are etched in my memory. I’m just an average person who lived through those times. I read the papers and watched the news and despaired for the survival of the country through all of this.
Somehow, the rule of law survived. The country survived. People were able to continue to be with family and friends, to go about their daily business and live their lives in relative freedom. Actually, it’s all relative and could be much, much worse.
I’m sorry about the length of this post, but I really want to give a little hope in these dark times. We’ve been there before and we survived. We will survive this time–BUT, it will take the commitment and action of the average citizen to make a difference. It will take voices and actions of leaders like Russ Feingold, John Conyers Jr., John Murtha, et al. It will take citizens demanding unbiased and accurate reporting by the media.
Thanks for this. You’ve got my thoughts in there, too… and it’s depressing, and most days I want to leave. I have a couple of bags packed with essentials just in case I do decide…
But yesterday I was out roaming around, kicking things about in my head, and the marquee outside the coffee shop where I go to hang out and get fast bandwidth (run by a seriously feisty grandmother type) had a message for us all:
Yes.
These are trying times.
Please…
Keep trying.